The Odyssey Retold By Teilo Berquier

Hearing Oneself Described as Dead

The king sits in his servant's hut in rags and listens to the swineherd describe him in the past tense, with love.

One of the strangest moments in the poem. Eumaeus, by his fire, tells a stranger about his lost master. A king named Odysseus, gone twenty years, sent to Troy and vanished. He raised the boy. He loved the man like a father loves a child. He believes him dead but waits anyway. And the stranger sitting across from him is Odysseus, in rags, listening. Hearing his own worth measured in another man’s memory. Hearing his name spoken with the weight of grief, hearing himself summed up by someone who has never stopped loving him and will never know, in this moment, that the love arrived. He cannot speak. He cannot claim the loyalty. He has to sit there and hear himself rendered as a ghost, and let the ghost stand. It is the loneliest scene in the homecoming.